my tears drop out...

my tears drop out once I think about my tomorrow
I am going to see Dr. Parminder in Bagan Specialist...
I feel suffer now as my nose problem appears again
it is really pain until I cannot sleep at night
OMG!! who can help me?
I recall back the scene at year 2007
that was the first time I went there
that time, I don't know how the doctor treat me
well, I sat quietly there... then I saw he took a rod went into my nose
oh... that feeling don't know how to describe
I cried out that time as well as my dad & mum
I really feel pain
I am now drop me tears again
I am pain...
nobody can understand the feel
why my health is this??
anybody can answer me???
why i have to suffer like this??
God!!!!!!
help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
who can help me???
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I really don't want this kind of live
I know I am weak
in fact, I also take vitamin everyday
but still weak!!!!
HOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!