一个失去家庭的爱的女孩～～

一个孩子，如果失去了家庭的注意力或关注力，相信心理都会出出现问题
就算孩子已到了10几岁，那种心却无法让人感受～
爸，我知道我并不是你心目中永远最乖最聪明的女儿
可是请你别用那斜视的眼神看着我，瞧不起我
虽然小学时我成绩的确是比现今好，可是程度不同了
不能再像以前那样
中学的压力比小学来得多
你却不明白！！！
你不曾明白我的感受……
我开始对你没感觉的【就算你是我爸爸】
我现在不想和你说话，不想理你的一举一动，不想理你所说我的东西
以往我会试着去改变自己的态度，可是今天的我却不同了！
我长大了，不再是小女孩！自己有自己的决定，也明白自己所做的东西！
成绩的确是下滑【从中一开始】
可是你懂吗？我是在努力着改进！不是不想读书！不是没有希望成就的一天！
现在你的态度不同多了！你不只是重男轻女，而且在成绩方面，你会说些刺激我的话，你不会对弟妹那样！
不是我妒忌或是什么！只是觉得孩子都是你的，你应该公平对待！
说到$$，你更是偏心！
你会给弟妹零用钱，可是你却没给我任何钱！你说我该从哪里拿钱来吃？打枪？去行乞？？
你根本不把我放在眼里！！！
以往你不是这样！如今你改变的似乎另一个人！

希望这情况不会持续，不然真的难以想象以后的情况！！！

A tired day again T.T

Do not know why, every Tuesday will be my tired day..
Truthly, I aready skipped ADDITIONAL MATHS class for 1 month.
The reason I skipped it was, I was tired or it was rain
Haiz...
I thank for my grandmother that willing to take me to this tuition
But every time she calls me, I will refuse to attend this class
She asked me what is my reason, I always answer [ Ah Po, I tired la... Headache]
She again and again angry with my attitude
She also always advice me to not skip any tution classes as SPM will be coming soon and I had paid the fees...
Sorry , Ah Po...
I really do not know how come I will be like that again...
I will try to not skip it again....


Today, early in the morning, I went to take breakfast with my dear
Although it was not very perfect and delicious, I aready happy as I have a long time no eat the rice ----> YAM RICE...
Really delicious... plus the 'MAN CHANG KUIH'
Wow... it was my great breakfast!!!
Tonite, I will be having dinner with my dear again...
Another aim is, I want he to give me his car to drive with the promise, [IF THE CAR BREAK, HE CANNOT ANGRY ME'
Haha... so selfish
do not know he willing sacrifice his car for me or not...
Hope he can la...

I LOVE U , MY DEAR....
FOREVER LOVE :)

Hello, my friends

Hi, to all my friends....
I back again!
The previous has been hacked by hacker [hate them!!!]
This is my new blog.... [hope that is not any problem happen again]

Yaya, this is my new blog.
Hope you all enjoy it....
For this blog, I will not write and type it in short form as I found that I already be used to these short form worlds and write them in my school essays...
Haha.. So I decide to start my new blogging life with the complete spelling worlds and hope the habit of myself in writing short form will go away from me!

Huh, that is nothing special for the days I lost my blog since last year.
But, I have to face SPM examination in this end year.
I m now try to improve my study attitude and the smart way to study
Although it is quite difficult, I believe that there is a will if I have the way to study hard
Sacrifice my inspirit and time to score well in the coming soon SPM
[that is what I hope]


Well, now I want to talk about my sadness :-(
It is really sad for me as my great-grandmother is now sick seriouslly in the hospital
She becomes very thin and her appearence makes me cry in my heart
She is not very familiar with my family, but she really makes me cry..
I hope she can recover as soon as possible
Now, she is 90 year-old [be close to 100 years old]
Great-grandmother, I hope you can recover soon. We worry on you...